eu amo

It is a romantic time right now.
My feelings are better I think but I am not sure
I think I am still in love with a person who I do not know is in love with me
Love is avery big emotion inside my heart.
I found her blog and she is doing fine but I do not think she had mentioned me.
That is okay, I read her blog online and am fine knowing she is fine.
I am going to send her a message saying how my love emotion is for her but it will be a secret message.

My secret message is here
When things are different we will fall in love again

água molhada

The weather is nice.
The sun is golden and the sky is not.
I do not mind being in this good weather. It is good for your soul.
In this good weather I am a bad person.
I think dirty thoughts in this weather and I want dirty things done to me.
In this weather I am very aroused and I cannot make it go away in this weather.
There are some inapproprite things I cannot type here.
Good weather is making me into a bad person.
I am thinking does thinking sexual thoughts make you a bad person.
Someone told me that thinking about sex makes you a bad person.
Why does it make me a bad person if I want to give my pleasure to someone else and take their pleasure from them.
I will trade my pleasure with them.

Today after I had my dirty thoughts I had lunch.
Good weather lunch was fish.
The type of fish was FLOUNDER it did not taste like any fish I have had before.
I am learning how to taste new things here.
I am learning how to be a bertter person.
I am also learning that I have vagina needs.
That makes me think dirty on bad days.
I do not think that it is bad to think dirty.
It is very frustrating when I think dirty because there is not a being whom can please me.
But when I do not do dirty sexual activity people please me all the time.

I am not a lonely person.
I am very happy.
I have brown friends here. I have pink friends here.
I am only lonely in my vagina.

w.e.i.t?

What if I was dead right now.
I have not done anything in life that is worth remembering.
I don't know what more to ask for.
Sometimes it is a sad thing to be who I am and I pretend that it is not a sad thing.
Who are you and is it a sad thing to be who you are?

do homem!!!

I am young and I am not perfect.
So I think that people do not need to be so mean to judged by people who arejudging me.
I have done many bads things in this country and to people who are close to me.
But people make lots of mistakes.
Humans are mistake making creatures.
I can list all of the things that I have done wrong....

I have stolen I have cheated on a relationship I have lied I have judged other people I have committed many sins

And people see these things I have done and thing I am wrong
I do not have to be perfect in life I have to live it the way I want to
People look at a thief and think they are nasty and disgusting but they do not think of the reasons why one steals
I did it because I was being selfish and do not have alot of money.
I did not harm anyone.
People look at a cheater and think they are nasty but they do not think of why they cheated or how it feels to the cheater.
I am young and IN school in America and I will make mistakes that people have to understand.
People hold things against you for a long time and it is silly.
Peaople make mistakes all the time and they have to be forgiving in their hearts.

I do not like unforgiving people.
I also do not like people who hold onto pain.

I am in a very angry mood this morning and maybe that is why I typed this.

ciclo dos povos e karmas

It is a tiring process to be human.

I sometimes wonder what I would be like as a bird.
I sometimes wonder what I would be like as a mouse.

It is tiring being a human.

Today I did many human things.
I ate with my human friends and combed my human hair.
We had salads.
Salads are a mixture of vegetables for human consumption.
Animals do not get a mixture of vegetables for consumption.
So I think that being an animal is easier.

But I like being human.
I sometimes wonder what I would be like as a cow.
I do not enjoy hamburger.

When I was finished eating with my human friends I went inside my room.
It is a plain human room.
I started to think about things like humans do.
I wonder if animals think.

Today after I ate I thought about all my nonfriends.
I do not have enemies.
I thought about the people that meeting I will.
I like friends.
I am human. Humans like other humans.

I read many blog today. Humans write blogs to make themselves happy.
Animals do not blog.
But humans are not better than animals. They are different.
You can not judge difference.

I had rice in my salad.
The humans here think that is werid. I think it taste very nice.

O.K.
My human friend today showed me her human blog.
It was nice.
She is alot more thinking and creative than I thought.
She is an O.K human friend.
I did not show her my blog back. I said it was personal.
She said O.K
She understood.
I think I like blog because of her.

For dinner I want to have potatoes.
In my country we do not have alots of potatoes.
America has so many.

Here is today lesson.
I am getting distracted. I am talking about extra things.

Today I end school. While I am outside school I will try to learn things.
I want to take every nonfriend I have OR ENEMIES WHO ARE PEOPLE WHO DO NOT FRIEND YOU and make them into friends.
Think of this.
If you can be friends again then YOU ARE A STRONG PERSON.
You show that you are better than anything in this world.
You can forgive people and return to being O.K with them.
If you can do this, you are a very powerful person.

Zitkala-Sa and the palefaces were not always enemies.
Palefaces hated her peoples.
Trails.
But Zitkala-Sa did not hate them.
If you give your firnedship to someone it is more powerful than being and enemy and hurting them.
You are forcing them to overcome the greatest obstacle in the world.
That greatest obstacle is the test of goodness.
Karma is true.

If you are enemy to people karma will eat you.
You can not make karma.
Tien Ta tell me that.
Ta had a friend who wronged her.
Ta wronged her back and said it was karma. NONFRIEND DESERVED IT.
BUT THIS IS NOT TRUE!!
You do not place karma upon someone. It will come to them in their own time!
When you befriend NONFRIEND again you can purify your own karma.

When you do good things that are so unexpected
Karma pays you back better.
For the rest of the March I will try to do good things no one would think I would do.
And Karma will bless me with a golden bull.

BAD people.

I do not think I am a bad person.
I do not think that anyone in the world is 'a bad person'.
Being bad is disagreeing with how someone else is.
Everyone is different and has different things that make them unique.
So someone can be bad to one person and not bad to another.
I do not think I am a bad person.
But there is this person who thinks I am a bad person.
I want them to know that I am not a bad person.
I just do not think like they think.

I want to be friends with interesting people in my life.
I do not want people to think I am bad.

I want to say this: before you think of someone as bad, you must know that not everyone thinks the same.
If you have someone you hate you have to think if they hate you to.
You have to think about why you think they are bad.
There are bad people out there who want to be loved and want forgiveness.
Because doing something 'bad' does not last forever.

I am going to seek forgiveness.
Not from GOD.
I am seeking forgiveness from being bad.
Do not hate someone because they are bad in YOUR mind.
A truly bad person would have no one to love at all.
I do not hate anyone.

I am not a bad person.
No one is a bad person.
Can you all find forgiviness inside of your hearts?
Not from GOD.
Not everyone believes.
Just forgive.

Not everyone is a bad person.

if you had stayed the same.

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you want
ha ah ah ah ah ah
and if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me

when you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in
i will show you you're so much better than you know
when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
i will find you darling and i will bring you home

and if you want to cry
i am here to dry your eyes
and in no time
you'll be fine

you think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think id leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that
i'll tell you you're right when you wrong
ha ah ah ah ah ah
and if only you could see into me

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby

oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me
oh when you're low
i'll be there
by your side baby